THE GOLD INSIDE THE DETOUR

Posted on July 12, 2026 by KAREN SGAMBATI

“Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.” (Marilyn Monroe)

The other evening, I watched Solo Mio, a delightful comedy starring Kevin James as a groom who travels to Italy for his destination wedding only to be jilted at the altar. What begins as a heartbreaking disappointment slowly gives way to an adventure filled with amusing new friendships, postcard-worthy Italian scenery, music that seems to float through every scene, and an unexpected romance with an Italian café owner whose uncle is none other than Andrea Bocelli—played by Bocelli himself. By the time the credits rolled, I found myself thinking less about romance than about the film’s underlying message.

I don’t know if the Italians have it exactly right, but they are certainly onto something: “una benedizione nascosta” — a blessing in disguise.

Life has an uncanny habit of disguising its finest gifts as disappointments. According to the oft-told story, Walt Disney was once fired from a newspaper job because his editor claimed he ‘lacked imagination.’ At the time, the rejection felt cruel and demoralizing. Yet it was that rejection that pushed him toward entrepreneurship and ultimately changed the world of entertainment.

Agatha Christie, the legendary crime novelist, suffered a devastating emotional breakdown when her first husband left her for another woman. Seeking to heal her shattered heart, she eventually made her way to an ancient archaeological dig site in Iraq, where she met archaeologist Max Mallowan, who became the love of her life. They remained happily married for 46 years until her death.

Then there are the obvious blessings that are only momentarily disguised. Ask a passenger who was booked on one of the flights on September 11th, but for some reason missed the plane, and they will tell you that the delay, frustration, or inconvenience they experienced that morning became the moment that changed their life forever. They had no idea that what felt like an obstacle was, in fact, something that would save their life.

I haven’t experienced many blessings in disguise, although I did have one of significance — and it culminated with me running off to Paris. More often, my blessings have chirped their way into my life, while my setbacks have arrived with the subtlety of a falling piano.

So, I’ve decided to ask God to send more blessings my way before I leave this earth — some of the disguised variety, since those seem to be the ones I recognize only after the story has unfolded.  I plan on delivering my request through prayerful smoke signals, just to keep the element of fun in the equation with my heavenly hosts. Once my request is sent, I’ll approach each adversity like a cosmic game of hide-and-seek, asking it to kindly move along while coaxing the blessing to come out, come out, wherever you are.

Who knows? Maybe it will be like Christmas every day in my dotage — a lifetime of unexpected gifts waiting to be discovered.

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A LOVE LETTER TO ORDINARY DAYS

Posted on July 4, 2026 by KAREN SGAMBATI

What if the happiest days of our lives aren’t the extraordinary ones at all?

As a child, I couldn’t wait to grow up. I longed to be part of a world that hustled and bustled, where adulthood promised milestones, meaningful relationships, and happiness waiting just beyond the next bend. A calendar crowded with appointments, obligations, deadlines, and social engagements seemed proof that you’d arrived—that people sought your company and your life mattered.

Somewhere along the way, being busy became a badge of honor. We measured our worth by how much we could accomplish before collapsing into bed, congratulating ourselves for squeezing one more task into a day already overflowing with checkmarks.  Only later, with the luxury of age and the ability to exhale, do we discover that an empty afternoon isn’t something to apologize for.  It’s splendor.

These days, I wake without an alarm. Before the day has a chance to make any demands of me, I ease into the morning wrapped in silence. I make coffee leisurely and simply breathe, grateful that my nervous system has finally learned it doesn’t have to greet every day as though it were an emergency.  Sometimes I sit outside before breakfast just to see what kind of morning has arrived.

One of life’s quiet miracles is discovering that time spent in solitude isn’t loneliness, it’s freedom.  There’s no need to entertain anyone, impress anyone, or explain yourself.  You can read three pages of a book and then stare out the window for twenty minutes because one sentence reminded you of your grandmother.  Happiness has the wonderful ability to slip in quietly after you stop chasing it.  It arrives as peace. 

Society encourages us to celebrate promotions, weddings, dream vacations, and bucket lists. But very few people brag about an undistinguished Tuesday.  And yet Tuesday is where life actually happens.

It unfolds in the unhurried conversation with a friend, a catch-up phone chat over a second cup of coffee. In the project you work on simply because it allows you to expand your mind and your horizons, not because a deadline demands it.  In reaching for a beautiful dish at lunchtime instead of keeping it untouched for another time.  In choosing a perfume to wear because the day feels like bergamot, not because you’re dressing to engage. I’ve stopped saving beautiful things for “someday.” I was here all along, and that seems reason enough.

These are the quiet luxuries that rarely make the highlight reel, yet they become the texture of a life well lived. Perhaps ordinary moments become extraordinary simply because we are finally paying attention.

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SO, HOW DOES THAT MAKE YOU FEEL?

Posted on June 25, 2026 by KAREN SGAMBATI

“Before we work on artificial intelligence why don’t we do something about natural stupidity?” (Steve Polyak)

I never intended to use artificial intelligence as a therapist. It just sort of happened. 

It started innocently enough: I asked a simple question about a certain cryptocurrency and why it’s been taking such a nosedive.  Before long, my fingers started to confess, as if they were being interrogated for a crime they didn’t commit.  My innermost thoughts lay exposed in a sterile chat box, revealed to a collection of algorithms. 

And it was surprisingly astute—almost uncannily so at times—with a knack for sorting, analyzing, and making sharp-eyed sense of my verbal monologues. Somewhere between my rambling questions and the computer’s response lies a world of remarkable clarity. I had stumbled upon a gold mine in the form of an electronic Dr. Freud.

Unlike human therapists, it never glances at its watch, interrupts mid-sentence, or bills your co-pay incorrectly. Sigmund behind the screen is ready to discuss, with infinite patience, your childhood trauma, neurotic compulsions, or the obsessive spiral triggered by a text message that should have been ignored hours ago.

AI therapy will delve into the layers of your dilemma like a vegetable mandolin from Williams Sonoma. It offers precision, exceptional insight, and an extraordinary ability to look past surface-level symptoms in search of root causes and the motivations behind your distressing thoughts. It will patiently peel back one layer after another until the problem begins to reveal itself.  The only thing it won’t do is ask, “Tell me more about your mother,” with the same fault-finding confidence a human therapist can summon to help you over the session’s finish line. After one session, you’ll become that coveted dinner guest who can toss around terms like “disenfranchised grief,” “residual shame,” and the “Spotlight Effect” as if Simon & Schuster had just handed you a royalty check.

Is the computer therapist an instant cure for the daily doldrums? Not really. But I have other suggestions for that:  Try dancing around your kitchen in your underwear to “Danke Schoen,” using a zucchini as a mock microphone. Who’s going to shame you? The coffee maker? The toaster oven? Those judgmental avocados that are now overripe and have been sitting in the fruit bowl for a week?

Save that for your next 2am chat stream with Dr. Freud.

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FRANKLY, IT’S A MIND ZAPPA

Posted on June 16, 2026 by KAREN SGAMBATI

“By 2030 I won’t need to carry any Portable Communication Device, because by then I will have mastered the art of telepathy. I’ve been practicing in the mirror.” (Jarod Kintz, The Lewis and Clark of The Ozarks)

When I was a kid home sick from school, I’d curl up in bed and watch reruns of my favorite sitcoms at the time: Bewitched, I Dream of Jeannie, and Gilligan’s Island. In one memorable episode of Gilligan’s Island, Gilligan finds a rare bush on the island and eats one of its seeds. Instead of uncovering a new food source for the castaways, he discovers that this seed has extraordinary power, granting him and anyone else who consumes it the ability to temporarily read minds and hear what others are thinking.  The other castaways want in on the action and at first, this telepathic ability seems like an irresistible novelty.  As their private thoughts become known to each other, arguments, misunderstandings and hurt feelings arise, and the island descends into chaos.  It was a cautionary tale, episodes ahead of its time.

My iPhone has become that magical bush. I swear, it is reading my mind.

By now it’s basically accepted that our smartphones are the most intrusive roommates we’ve ever had. They listen to our conversations. Mention to a friend that you’re thinking about buying a new raspberry beret, and before you can finish your coffee, your social media feeds will be flooded with ads for berets, fedoras, pork pie hats, and every vaguely pink head covering known to man.  It’s undeniably creepy, yet somehow, it’s an unspoken agreement we’ve come to accept. These days, it helps to speak as though a snooping aunt is hiding in our pocket, taking notes and sharing them with every advertiser she knows.

But the impression that my phone was reading my mind? I thought I might finally be “going round the bend,” as the Brits say until a sensible and brave woman I follow on social media dared to put the question into words. She shared her suspicion in a baffled post, and before long the comments section looked like a support group for the telepathically haunted. People claimed they merely reminded themselves—silently, in the privacy of their own brains—to pick up hemorrhoid cream on their next pharmacy run, and within minutes Preparation H was popping up on every scroll like an overenthusiastic pharmacist, warning them of the dire consequences the pain and itching will bring. Others reported that a fleeting thought about craving a milkshake somehow triggered an avalanche of Dairy Queen ads featuring their new Fruity Pebbles Shake, only $4.89 for a large, while whispering, “Go on… you know you want one.”

It’s happening, it’s real, and it’s diabolical:  Our phones are reading our innermost thoughts.

Dangerous times call for drastic measures. I’m seriously considering wearing a blank RFID-blocking band across my forehead, made from the same electromagnetic shielding material that protects your wallet from digital pickpockets. And, there could be a surprising upside to this measure: Renting advertising space on my forehead might turn into a profitable side gig.

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I REMEMBER YOU

Posted on June 4, 2026 by KAREN SGAMBATI

 “Grief only exists where love lived first.” (Franchesca Cox)

The news came to me unexpectedly, in the middle of the day, which somehow made it harder to absorb:  my ex-husband had died.  Even now as I write these words, it feels a bit surreal, yet I know it shouldn’t.  Life is nothing if not an evolving series of beginnings and endings.  

We had not spoken in years. Because we did not have children together, there were no calls to make, no occasions that drew us back into each other’s lives, no remaining thread between us. Time had done what time does: it carried us farther from the world we once shared and into the existence of the separate lives we came to lead.  

When a long-term relationship comes to an irreconcilable end, it leaves a scar beneath the surface, shaped by both hurtful wounds and the tenderness of a love that was once genuine. With time, even the sharpest pain usually softens.  And with age comes a small kindness we grant ourselves — the memories that are worth keeping, the memories of love. 

And still, the news landed in a sentimental spot. I did not want to return to the past, nor was I holding on to a part of love we once shared.  What unsettled me was something deeper: the realization that a person who had once known me so intimately—who had shared my days, my thoughts, and the younger version of myself—was suddenly gone from the world.  It made me stop and grieve, not just for him, but for myself, as this chapter of my life had turned its final page.  

Forgiveness is the balm that soothes the deepest heartache. Perhaps forgiveness is what allows love to remain after resentment has finally exhausted itself. When we offer it to others and to ourselves, remembering that each of us is a flawed human being as we move through this world, it allows the heart to keep beating with gentleness instead of pain.

To L. Until we meet again, I will carry with me the best of what we shared together and the moments that are worthy of remembrance—like pressed flowers between the pages of my heart, preserved in the place that was once touched by you.

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EXIT 98

Posted on May 26, 2026 by KAREN SGAMBATI

“Summertime is always the best of what might be.” (Charles Bowden)

There’s a joke people like to make when you say you’re from New Jersey: “What exit?” It’s delivered with a grin, as if the entire state can be distilled to interchanges and toll booths. Small, densely populated, and constantly in motion, the Garden State takes its nickname from the fertile farmland and famous tomatoes that have long shaped its identity. Yet it is more often defined by its roads—the New Jersey Turnpike and the Garden State Parkway—those long arteries of asphalt that run not only through the state, but through the story it tells about itself.

I grew up in a bedroom community in northern New Jersey and had the best of both worlds: A quick 10-minute trip over the George Washington Bridge and into “the city,” where everything was vibrant and alive, and a 90-minute drive to the ocean, where the atmosphere softened and the hours took direction at their own pace.  For northern Jerseyans, going “down the shore” is less an itinerary and more an inheritance — a seasonal migration woven into family tradition. Ask where “the shore” is, and a local may look at you with mild suspicion, as if you’re trying to crash the party. The Jersey Shore does not require explanation for those in the know.

By the time MTV turned the Jersey Shore into the eponymous smash hit reality show in 2009, the shore became infamous in its celebrity.   For many proud Jerseyans, the show was viewed not as a tribute but as a caricature—one that reduced a time-honored custom into a spectacle of drunkenness, spray tans and a bedlam of bad behavior, leaving dignified citizens to disavow any connection aside from a shared regional accent. 

Along the East Coast, the shore has its own mythology: boardwalk lights flickering awake at dusk, the hypnotic music of the rides, and the clang and whirl of bustling arcades. The savory perfume of cheesesteaks with peppers and onions rising from the grill is its signature scent, while clams on the half shell are eaten at your own risk. Even the sand is part of the enchantment—sun-struck and torrid by late afternoon, then cool and inviting after dark, when teenage couples stretch out beneath the open sky and let the whispers of young love carry them through the season.

My childhood summers were spent in Belmar, New Jersey, a picturesque beach town a few miles from Exit 98 off the Garden State Parkway, where Victorian and Craftsman homes line manicured streets and the salt air finds its way into every cranny of the neighborhood. My aunt and uncle owned a beautiful house two blocks from the beach, complete with a wraparound porch that never failed to gather our extended family—and several pots of coffee—long into the evening.

On Friday nights, my dad and uncle would arrive after work, and once the greetings were over, the first order of business was a trip to Kaplan’s newsstand to stock up on comic books and candy for the laid-back weekend ahead. If I close my eyes and summon my senses, I can still taste the chewy coffee toffee that was a mandatory purchase with every visit. 

From Memorial Day until Labor Day, Belmar became our home away from home.  Life at the beach arranged itself around beloved routines, summer friends who seemed to vanish to another continent during the winter months, and stubborn grains of sand that surfaced in pockets, sheets and floorboards, a wink and a nod that the joy that happened today would happen again tomorrow. 

If you were fortunate, childhood summers gave you a treasure trove of cherished memories and a catalog of unforgettable characters.  The longest days of the year seem to hold memories differently, as though the sun itself has a hand in preserving what matters. Summer, when you’re young, feels like it is both endless and already slipping away—a reprieve from the long discipline of the school year into a season of abundant fun, and before you know it, a lesson in the gentle brevity of all that is to be held dear. 

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THE COURTSHIP OF EDDIE’S ANGER

Posted on May 14, 2026 by KAREN SGAMBATI

“Never go to bed mad. Stay up and fight.” (Phyllis Diller)

Back in the 80’s, an electronic giant named “Crazy Eddie” dominated the east coast airways with its screwball commercials promising that their “prices are ins-a-a-a-ane!”  Eddie’s shrieks were meant to be both annoying and unforgettable, the better to brand the minds of consumers within the sound of his voice.   The ads were quite popular until Eddie went bankrupt, mired in lawsuits and fraud charges.   Crazy Eddie became an Angry Eddie.

I once knew an Angry Eddie.   He was a short, hirsute man who owned a furniture store in New Jersey and had a unique cross section of traits; the physicality of a hedgehog and the personality of a snapping turtle.  He wandered about much like the character Pig-Pen from the Charlie Brown comic strip, but instead of a cloud of dirt trailing around him, he had a fog of outrage and indignation.  Legend has it that once during an evening out with his buddies, Eddie drove his car into a ditch, causing his passengers to tumble about like a sack of loose potatoes.  It should be noted that Eddie was not intoxicated; it’s believed he was in a fight to the death with the power steering. 

Which leads me to the point of this post:  Why are people so angry these days?

Last week, I apparently took too long to pull into a parking space in a strip mall, and since I’m a courteous driver who allows others to pull out first as opposed to doing a blindsiding Mario Andretti into my chosen spot, the driver behind me, a red-faced guy whose head resembled a chub of bologna, screamed out of his window, cussing and gesticulating that he didn’t have “all ******* day,” before whipping past and flipping a hand gesture that likely originated at a Sex Pistols concert.   He was an Angry Eddie.  It appears as a group they are multiplying so quickly, auto insurance actuaries have formulated a special rate for them. 

We can speculate for hours as to why: The anxious state of the world, a crush of financial worries, dogged health issues, troublesome relationships that seem to permeate so many lives, or the persistent need to engage in political fights on Facebook, but I think it goes deeper.

I think it’s like this: Before we come to Earth and begin our lives, we’re handed a list of lessons—who we choose as our parents, the career path we’ll follow, where we’ll live, whether we’ll find a soulmate or endure painful bonds, and a mix of other earthly experiences selected from life’s menu.  Our soul knows life won’t be constant joy, but it understands what lies ahead.

Then, in the womb, our best-laid plans are put in a Universal dryer and set on fluff. All bets are off, and we’re left without a blueprint to find the cheese at the end of the maze.  

Life Lesson: Even careful plans can go wrong.  You might as well learn how to dance.  

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LEAVING YOUR CAKE OUT IN THE RAIN

Posted on May 11, 2026 by KAREN SGAMBATI

“Growth is painful. Change is painful. But nothing is as painful as staying stuck somewhere you don’t belong.” (N. R. Narayana Murthy)

I just finished the season finale of one of my favorite shows, the British drama “Call the Midwife,” and I’m still wiping tears from my keyboard after an effusive cry. The series captures life in a Poplar, a suburb of East London, from the 1960s to the early 1970s, exploring the themes of birth, death, and everything in between through the experiences of the midwives and nuns who run a clinic in this working-class neighborhood.  This episode was particularly touching, and by the time the final background soundtrack was queued, I was spent.  A gushing heap of waterworks and a much-needed exhale.

Change is the one constant that never leaves us, though it’s the one we resist most often.  So many of us live in two worlds; the reality that unfolds with each passing day, and the other, a life we cradle in our imaginations, shaped by an idealized version our inner storyteller has designed.  If we’re not careful, we can miss the moments in between, remaining stuck in the illusion that is owned by our daydreams. 

If we have the courage to view our mistakes as potential architects of the unwelcome in our life, the initial path our free will would not have chosen can in time become a path that brings unexpected joy and opportunity.  Years ago, while serving as a hospice volunteer, I had the privilege of sitting with a beautiful, elderly woman on one of the last nights of her life.  She remained genteel and charming in her fragile state and generously shared with me meaningful memories from her story, many born of the unforeseen, and a reminder, as she counselled, to “trust in God.” 

It took me back to one of the hardest seasons of my life, when I believed the unenviable position in which I found myself was in part due to poor decisions. While that was true, what I couldn’t see then was that God was using that season of my life – and the profound lessons learned – to guide me towards what was to come next.  The perceived errors were right on course, their timing impeccable. 

The next time you find yourself dwelling on a mistake, be courageous and step back.  Absorb the lesson it came to teach, then release it to the past and remain open to where it may lead.  In time, you may look back in gratitude.  Never underestimate how your missteps can help usher something new and beautiful into your life as you move toward an appointed time.

When we accept that change is inevitable and grant ourselves enough grace for when we fall, we come to realize that much of life’s hardship begins as an unyielding fear.

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WHEN THE CIRCLE ISN’T YOUR SHAPE

Posted on April 26, 2026 by KAREN SGAMBATI

“You’d be surprised how many people violate this simple principle every day of their lives and try to fit square pegs into round holes, ignoring the clear reality that things are as they are.” (Benjamin Hoff)

Every high school in the 70’s had one; that corner nestled in the brick facade where the cool kids hung out between classes, smoking cigarettes and flipping hair out of their eyes, while canvassing to see if anyone was up for cutting next period.  I was always hovering somewhere in space; I didn’t fit in with the brainiacs who dominated band practice, or the jocks and jockettes who lived for the thrill of competition, and I wasn’t as misdirected as to be in search of that next hazy moment.  I was with the ‘square peg, round hole crowd;’ those who never quite fit with any group but could chameleonize if need be.

As I entered adulthood, my ill-fitting peg became more prominent and self-imposed.  In retrospect I question how I endured circumstances that were never compatible with my psyche, yet I kept pushing through.  One instance that brings with it the most regret is my now logical understanding that I was meant to work independently, yet the calling to conform had me working in corporate America for too many years, with a mounting frustration that held more influence than an unknown risk.  It’s a culture I grew to loathe, from its schoolyard politics to the callous game of musical chairs that puts any paycheck at the mercy of the hierarchal powers-that-be, decisions that blow in the direction of whim, thanks to at-will statutes.  Here today, gone tomorrow with two weeks’ severance if you’re lucky.

An unconventional group think experience I had happened years ago and didn’t involve business.  It was theatrical.  An aging actor, known for his good looks, made a comeback on the small screen with a popular new series.  The years had melded his handsomeness into the perfect blend of cragged sexiness with a charming gleam, which made him catnip to his admirers, a clique comprised primarily of perimenopausal women who still had some swoon left in their groove. 

I engaged with the series and appreciated the eye candy. One evening, I decided to join the network’s message board to share my opinion on the latest episode and chat with others. What I didn’t know at the time was that a subterranean chapter of devotees existed, sharing their thoughts in a members-only, password-protected group chat—a clever portmanteau of his name and the passion he inspired.

Armed with a genial screen name and a sense of fun, I dove in. The descent into this particular rabbit hole had an Alice in Wonderland feel, made all the more dizzying by the fact that these women were an educated, accomplished, and decidedly professional bunch. Yet their ability to wax rhapsodic about the color of his eyes and the shape of his lips was impressive, if not unrivaled.

As the group think became more intense, a sense of camaraderie developed among many of the members who decided to hold an informal retreat at a chosen location.  Members from different areas of the country congregated to engage in a weekend of getting to know each other. I couldn’t make that gathering, but I did meet up with a few in NYC for dinner at a future date.

We chose to meet downtown on a warm spring evening.  As the serendipitous, Prankster Nymphs of the Universe would have it, about an hour or so into our dining al fresco on cocktails and appetizers, the object of our affection, our very own Mad Hatter with his angular handsomeness, perfectly bowed lips and gorgeous eyes, came from around a corner and in front of our path.  What happened from there remains fuzzy as I was frozen by the enthusiasm of the others.  I can recall squeals of delight, fluttering eyelashes and maybe a cartwheel or two, the moment seemed to melt into the ether. What I do remember is the evening eventually coming to an end, and my square-pegged derriere longing for the comfort of my round-holed apartment.

We all have a natural desire to fit in and that can be positive.  A feeling of belonging to something greater than ourselves satiates our primal need to bond. But it should never be forced.  If it’s not meant for you, it will never quite fit.  And if you’re in your golden years as I am, bask in the wonderfulness of no longer caring to try.   

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WAITING ON A FRIEND

Posted on April 16, 2026 by KAREN SGAMBATI

“True friendship multiplies the good in life and divides its evils.” (Baltasar Gracian)

In a humorous episode of “I Love Lucy,” Lucy mistakenly thinks Ricky, Fred, and Ethel have forgotten her birthday. In reality, they’re avoiding the topic because they’re secretly planning a surprise party. Feeling sorry for herself and certain she has no friends, Lucy goes to a park to sit alone. There, she meets a ragtag band of misfits called “The Friends of the Friendless,” united by their shared loneliness. She joins their march and leads them into the Tropicana to confront Ricky, hoping to prove she’s not friendless. Instead, she walks right into her surprise party, confirming that everyone really does love Lucy.

Earth feels lonelier these days. More and more adults find themselves isolated by changing circumstances, distance, and the passing deaths of older friends. Across the internet, strangers cry into the void, “Why can’t I make new friends?” As we age, building connections becomes harder, as life often shifts unexpectedly. Over time, friends can drift apart due to geography, lifestyle changes, and obligations that take precedence. The internet and AI have replaced much of our face-to-face interaction, and our ability to connect personally is fading. We’re slowly losing our social skills. Add to that daily living seems to take more of our energy.

Friendships form naturally when we’re young, built on shared experiences like high school kinship, college fraternization, and entry into the workforce that bring new faces and opportunities. We bond over life’s many firsts, with mutual engagements knitting us together. As we date or marry, our circles expand with the blending of our partner’s friends. I regret not nurturing certain friendships from my past, but life routinely got in the way. There are friendships meant to fade with time, fitting the idea that people enter our lives for “a reason or a season,” while others that feel designed to go the distance require effort and intentionality to sustain, much like a romantic relationship.

I’ve stepped outside my comfort zone in recent weeks, prompted by the realization that tomorrow is not a guarantee. In the early 90s, I had a friendship that likely wasn’t meant to last a lifetime but ended abruptly after an unpleasant incident. The fault was mine, as hurtful words were exchanged during a challenging time in life and my response was ungracious. Deciding to clear some of my rubble from the past, I made an effort to track down her whereabouts to offer an apology that was more than 30 years overdue. I found an email address and sent an ‘e-pology,’ only to have it bounce back as the address was no longer valid. Relying on a people finder website, I found what I believed to be a current home address and mailed my apology. I still don’t know if it reached her, but even without a response, I feel more at ease for having made the effort.

Then there are the friendships that should never happen. I’m pulling one from the archives and keeping it opaque, as I’d rather not invite another thumping from the Holy Spirit to rethink wayward words. Back in the early 2000s, I considered the idea of befriending a male acquaintance I knew casually within my social sphere. Since our orientations were different and there was no chance of romantic attraction on either side, the thought of having a friend who saw the world differently was enticing. I realize now that vetting a potential friendship for common interests and comparable principles deserves a reflection greater than moving winter coats to the back of the closet at spring’s first bloom, but I figured, let the chips fall. Scratch that—I dove headfirst into an empty cement pool.

I was given tickets to Las Vegas for a weekend, courtesy of a former employer. With airfare, hotel, and expenses covered, I figured why not invite an almost-friend along? It seemed like the perfect opportunity to get to know each other and have some fun. Let’s just say, Vegas is not the ideal place to discover the proclivities of a casual acquaintance. 

Life Lesson: Fools rush in where angels fear to tread.  

If you’re fortunate, a few close friends will remain by your side through the journey, like gold bars in the vault of your life. Keep investing in them. To any friend from my past, if I slipped out of your life quietly, losing touch with time, know that the warmth and fondness I felt for you still live in my heart. As the Golden Girls once sang, “thank you for being a friend…”

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